All Alone And So Not Ok I Fake A Smile (i wrote this when i was in 8th standard)

I get bullied and teased at school all the time.I fake a smile everyday.I tried telling one of my friends but she didn't listen.She didn't care.She just said 'well,no one beats you up so you're ok'.But let me tell you,for me the insider,emotional,mental pain is way worse than physical.Of course physical pain can cause emotional pain,but I'm way more emotional,easier to upset,more shy and quieter than all my other friends so it's harder for me to deal with just one type of pain.When the things at school get worse I start getting all sorts of weird thoughts and suicidal feelings. My family don't listen either.They just say 'stand up for yourself'.The thing is I can't.It's just too hard.So I pretend that I'm ok. I guess I'm all alone.