The "mask" We Wear

At times all of us use a so called "mask" to hide our true emotions putting on a smile when you see the girl/guy you like in the hands of another making you sad inside but cant help but feel sad on the inside. Well I can say that I am hiding my true emotions under this "mask" called a smile. Hiding all the pain and saddness knowing that I'm not okay with what I'm seeing that I want to become happy but I cant. That what people around me like my father say things like that I can never get a girlfriend and that I'm lying about having a trauma of rejection from the very girls I liked saying that Im batting for the other team and try to laugh it of knowing that he understands nothing of what I went through because of how I am and hate myself sometimes for it because I try to change but its just to hard. I've always pretended to be alright giving off that smile and laughter during the the day while turning to tears and saddness at night when nobody can see you. I pretend nothings wrong when I see a couple being lovey dovey seeing them happy and thinking that I will never be that way because of how I am. So yeah I do pretend to be okay but its all just a "mask" meant to hide what Im truely feeling inside.